Blodhramr

Hey guys. Long time, no see. So as the title of this journal entry suggests, I'm not doing too good.

I mean my life is great. I'm almost 19, I have a decent job (I work at a doggy daycare), I just got my liscense and a car, plenty of food and my parents aren't telling me to move out yet. But where I've only had one anxiety attack in my entire life up until recently, I've had 4 in the past week.

There's really nothing I should be worriying about, but for some reason I am completely stressed out.

I'm having trouble falling asleep, my brain feels foggy, I'm getting headaches, and I feel tense and jumpy, especially at work (again, I work with adorable doggies. That should be the opposite of stressful). And my boss is great, but everytime he asks how I'm doing I feel as though I'm about to start crying.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I'm starting to think I may have to quit my job, but that really isn't an option as I do need the money. I just don't know if it's worth it, or if this will go away. If it doesn't, I don't know how much more I can take.

What did I do to deserve this...?

PS: Sorry. You probably have your own problems to deal with, without havin to hear mine.

PPS: Check out these "aesthetically challenged mugs."
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So I kinda want to cosplay Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III and take my new Toothless plush blodhramr.tumblr.com/image/826… to the midnight premiere of How To Train Your Dragon 2, but I'm not sure if I should... What do you guys think?

EDIT
Does anybody know of a good (semi cheap) binder I could use for this? I'm having a hard time finding one...

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(1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your DA page.

(2) Tell you a colour you remind me of.

(3) Tell you what element I believe you belong to (e.g. water, fire, air, etc.).

(4) Tell you which one of your OC's is my favourite.

(5) Ask you a question, and you must answer.

(6) Tell you something I like about you or your art.

(7) Give you a nickname.

(8) Tell you what am I doing right now.

(9) Tell you what food/ flavour/smell you remind me of.

(10) Tell you to do this in your journal too, if you haven't already

Okay so lately I've been a little more than obsessed with the BBC tv show, Doctor Who. If you don't know what it is, shame on you. But basically, at one point I decided I would eat fish custard, sometime in the very near future.

But first, a little back story…very short, leaving out all of the really important details, because then you would just get way too confused and I'd never be able to explain it all properly, especially just in one entry. Really.

See, the Doctor regenerates when he's killed. Well, not killed, 'cause he doesn't die, because he regenerates, see? Already confusing, huh?

Anywho, he regenerates. He becomes someone new. Well, not new, because he's the same old Doctor he always was, but now he's new (and young…sort of…but not really). Well, again, not new. He looks new. But he is new too, because he's a new someone, with new looks, and attitudes, and tastes. But essentially, he's the same. Get it? No? Well, just keep reading, you might.

So, like I said, the Doctor regenerates, he gets new. New look, new likes, new dislikes, and new tastes (but same old Doctor…). In his latest regeneration, into the Eleventh Doctor, played by the incredibly talented, super adorable, and perfectly perfect Matt Smith, he needed to find that… something…to eat. Regeneration really takes it out of you, after all. Ten almost didn't make it through his regeneration. Good thing he finally got a nice cuppa tea.

The Doctor isn't really quite sure, since he doesn't quite know himself anymore (even though he's sort of really the same Doctor he's always been) what he wants. After meeting the lovely little Miss Amelia Pond, he proceeds to explore the possibilities of what he may, or may not, want to eat, with little Amelia's help, of course. She strikes out on every count, but he suddenly realizes that exactly what he needs is…fish fingers. And…custard. Or fish custard (here's a link, if you want to watch the actual scene: www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oo2RKA…).

So I just made some fish fingers, and put some custard into a bowl, and, well, ate it. And let me tell you, it isn't NEARLY as nasty as it sounds. In fact, it's effing amazing! I believe this decently explains my reaction... whovianrage.files.wordpress.co…

Since nobody else has mentioned it yet... I went to MegaCon for the first time!!!!!

So I got a Code Geass wall scroll and an Okami hat, then I was broke. But hey, it's not a good con if you go home with money, right? I cosplayed Ciel from Black Butler, although the wig was really the only thing I liked about it. went too, but apparently he doesn't care enough. Unfortunately I didn't get to meet Tom Felton, but oh well. There were a bunch of Slytherins running around, which was fun. I also saw a REALLY good Madam Red, and totally got a picture of the life-sized R2. I definitely plan to go next year. I'm thinking a steampunk elf ranger? :3 Oh well. I've got a year for it. Let me know what you guys think for cosplay!